“A vivacious 23-year-old in our church is facing the possibility of a terminal diagnosis. Understandably, each day she swings between faith and grave fear. We’re praying like crazy, but what will happen if our prayers don’t work? When one of my relatives heard about this book, she broke down in tears. Her struggle is with chronic fatigue syndrome, a condition that has sapped her energy since leaving university 2 years ago. She is sometimes unable to lift even a small bag of potatoes, gets exhausted after any serious conversation, and has never been able to work. I’m also recalling the face of a man who received a clear word from God to abandon his safe career and launch out in business. It was a risk, but he felt sure that the Lord had spoken to him. Three years later, he was bankrupt and without a house. But by far, his greatest loss was the ability he once had to trust God simply. Maybe your problems are less obviously painful than those scenarios. You’re probably reading this because… some of your prayers simply aren’t working and you want to know why. Maybe you took a risk, stepped out of the boat, and sank. Maybe you’re sick and tired of praying for healing and breakthrough.” This excerpt from Pete Greig’s God on Mute is sure to ruffle a few feathers, if only because somewhere in the middle of it, we find ourselves. We wish this wasn’t the case, but it is. It’s painfully honest and it provides a gloomy portrait of reality. Unanswered prayers are powerful enough to cause us to question everything. Even with all the “head knowledge” of God in the world, unanswered prayers can make us struggle deeply, questioning the goodness and/or existence of God altogether. And yet, even as we’re tortured on the inside, we’re able to mask this on the outside. We tell others only of the positive things, as we desperately try to salvage the fleeting image of what we once thought was a good God. It is here that Grieg reflects: “[We] are quick to spread glory stories, but disappointments tend to be brushed under the carpet because we don’t want to discourage anyone or be a bad commercial at work. But God isn’t like us. He doesn't get insecure about His performance, and He never asks us to cover up for Him.” If we were to embrace this invitation and open Pandora's box, our minds might naturally run to Jesus’s words in Matthew 7:7: "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Some would quickly push back saying, but in-context this passage is speaking about praying in God’s will. If only it were so simple. “Why do so many prayers that appear to fit perfectly with God’s revealed will in Scripture remain unanswered?," Grieg asks. "Can we really say to the mother in mourning, “it wasn’t God’s will to save your baby?” Are we supposed to believe that the rape victim who screams for help is praying out of line with the Father’s purposes? These are extreme examples, admittedly, but they are not uncommon." It gets darker. “How are we to make sense of the idea that God provides for the details of our lives -- food on the plate and gas in the tank -- when so many people cry out to Him from the farthest clutches of despair, yet suffer and die?”, Grieg adds. At this point, you’re probably wondering if it was even a good idea to open up this blog, if only because it’s left you in an extremely uncomfortable state of mind. But don’t bail just yet. There are sound answers to these questions and you’d be happy to hear that a world exists in which you can be content living in the disappointment of seemingly "unanswered" prayers. It might not be the life you had imagined, but if you stay long enough to endure the pain, you’ll find yourself living a stronger and more resilient life than you ever thought was possible before. There’s a very real tension that exists between the disappointments and celebrations, the promises of Matthew 7:7 and the unanswered prayers. For this reason, we can’t simplify God. He’s both far more complex and far more beautiful than the human mind can comprehend. In God on Mute, Grieg segments unanswered prayers into three different categories:

It’s easy to talk about the miraculous nature and wonder of God, yet in doing so we often completely overlook the orderliness of God and how this plays into our perception of unanswered prayers. Just take a look around at the world that surrounds you and you’ll find order at every turn. In fact, this is one of the reasons scientists are starting to wonder if there may indeed be an intelligent creator behind everything. They even made a documentary about it. Hosted by actor Will Smith, 2018’s One Strange Rock explores the absurd and precise conditions in which life on Earth is even made possible. How does this apply to prayer? Because quite simply, sometimes our prayers contradict with the way the world actually is ordered. Grieg explains, “we know that God has intricately established certain governing principles (laws of nature) that make life work, and that they do so most of the time with almost infinite complexity and exquisite harmony.” Speaking in generalities, if God were to answer every prayer for a miracle, it would most certainly at points conflict with the orderly nature of the world. Twentieth century theologian CS Lewis, puts it this way: “That God can and does, on occasions, modify the behavior of matter and produce what we call miracles is part of Christian faith, but the very conception of a common, and therefore stable, world demands that these occasions should be extremely rare.” Let’s make this a bit more practical. Many people have difficulty reconciling natural disasters with the concept of a good God. How could he allow hurricanes, earthquakes, tsunamis and tornadoes that have wrecked cities, stolen lives and changed the fortunes of millions in an instant? Yet we must consider, if God were to stop or suspend every single one of these events, this would quite literally create an infinite amount of ripple effects that would affect the rest of the world. Grieg calls storms “the air-conditioning system of the earth, keeping the climate-- and thus ecosystem--delicately in balance.” This does NOT mean that God intends for you or your loved one to die in a natural disaster. In fact, some don’t even like the term natural disaster to begin with, because humans have had a role in accelerating the intensity, frequency and visceral nature of these events.

But we digress. The point is to contemplate all that God is holding in balance -- the stories of 7.8 billion people, the laws of nature and the sin that has affected those laws (ex. air pollution).

Perhaps on an even more practical level, some of our prayers conflict with the prayers of other people. On July 8th, 2010, the city of Cleveland was locked in a standstill, awaiting The Decision from LeBron James on what his next move was going to be. For many people in the city, LeBron’s story was wrapped up in theirs. A hometown hero, one of their own, making a choice of whether to stay or leave for greener pastures with another team. Inevitably that day, thousands of people threw up prayers that he would stay. Perhaps millions more in other cities were praying that he would sign with their squad. So whose prayer should God answer? Because clearly it can’t be all of them. Someone is going to be left with unanswered prayers. In the end, LeBron took his talents to South Beach and left the city of Cleveland in distress. Jerseys were burned, people enraged. And it took years for Clevelanders to get over it. Depending on your personal appetite for sports fandom, it might seem a bit dramatic and borderline ridiculous that an athlete could evoke those types of emotions out of people. Let’s switch gears. Say you prayed to get a parking spot, someone else took it, you were late for an interview, you didn’t get the job and your life was turned upside down? The anxiety rushing through your veins, as you plead with God to save you from your own foolishness. And maybe he would. But this time, he doesn’t do it, as someone else was praying the exact same thing who actually got the spot. Admittingly, these are more softballs in the context of unanswered prayers. Rationally, we can work them out in our heads and get to a place of contentment. My foolishness led to me losing the job opportunity. Maybe LeBron leaving wasn’t all that bad. We might even be able to process the weather patterns more easily through this lens. But what about the unanswered prayers that are much harder to swallow? The ones where it seems obvious that God could have come through, like healing a 5-year-old of cancer and setting them on the path towards a long and healthy life. But no... he decided to go silent, instead choosing to let someone go through the unexplainable pain of losing their child that day. Why? How could this happen? As we go deeper into this conversation, these are the types of unanswered prayers that often cause people to spiral.

Because those of us engaging in this conversation today are spread across the spiritual spectrum, we must clarify that God does in fact have a will. As in what he wants to see happen. Put simply, this would include the moral expectations he’s laid out for humanity. Things as simple as humans not being greedy or racist. Scripture tells us that in the beginning, God created a perfect world that was perfectly designed and perfectly embodied his perfect will. Now, if there’s one too many perfects in there for your taste, consider that collectively, our hearts deeply long to see this world. How is it that we can imagine a world that we’ve never known? Why is fighting for a better world so deeply embedded into our DNA? Why do we long for racial reconciliation? It’s almost as if we have this phantom pain of the soul, where we long for the idyllic conditions of the Garden of Eden. But something is quite clearly standing in the way. I am. You are. As we follow along with the biblical story, we find that humans decided to go rogue in God’s perfect world. It goes without saying -- but the ability to go rogue infers that we also have a will. We have the ability to choose. Do we want what we want? Or what God wants? And if the last few years have shown us anything, it’s that people don’t always make good choices. Sometimes they’re just plain evil. So why does God allow this? How could God allow someone to murder? To rape? To commit racist and sexist acts? Because his highest value is love. Love is only possible if it exists in a framework where there is free will. If you had to force your significant other to love you, then it wouldn’t really be love. That’s not something you can manufacture. In the same way, God didn’t create us to be robots, who would freely love him and others and programmatically do exactly as he wishes. We can choose. We see this play out as Jesus explores the nature of God through the Parable of the Prodigal Son in Luke 15:11-32. For those unfamiliar, Jesus tells a story of a Jewish father with two sons. The younger son takes his inheritance and spends it like a Vegas casino gambler, ends up destitute and living among pigs, and comes home, only for his father to lovingly embrace and forgive him. The story is a mirror for God's relationship and love for us. But also implicit within that story is an aspect of choice. The father's initial heart was not that the son would run away, but the son also was able to make up for his mistake by making another more positive choice. How much different would the story have sounded if the son never ran away because he was threatened or forced to love his father from the start? The key question to consider is this: how often does God allow us to reap what we sow (both good and bad) from our choices, and how much does he intervene or interfere with that supposed free choice? We don't have specific percentage points or insights as to why it appears that God moves or heals or saves in certain situations and not others. In fact, you might reject this theology altogether. You don’t agree. Surely God could have created a world where we have free will, freeness to love and only choose good all at the same time. Here’s what theologian Tim Keller has to say about this thought in his book Walking With God Through Pain and Suffering: “The assumption is if I can’t see any reasons God might have for permitting evil, then he probably doesn't have any. But that premise is obviously false… if God is infinitely knowledgeable -- why couldn’t he have morally sufficient reasons for allowing evil that you can’t think of?” It would seem absurd to think that we humans, with only the lens of living out our own personal experience, would know better than the Being that has created well… everything. Keller says that “to insist we know as much about life and history as all-powerful God is a logical fallacy.”

There is a reason scripture constantly is talking about trusting in God’s goodness, his character and the like. We’re constantly being redirected to who he is, because we’d argue that quite frankly, that’s all that we can handle.

We will never be able to make sense of everything in our current form. And while that can be an incredibly unsatisfying statement, it is ultimately what will set us free from the why questions. Why me? Why my child? Why my mom? Why my business? Of course, God gives us freedom to explore these ad nauseam, just read the book of Psalms, but at some point, we have to go through the seven stages of grief. Ultimately, the ideal landing spot is holding fast onto God, his goodness, that he has our best interests in mind and the life that he promises is to come. So what does this look like practically speaking? Perhaps one of the most prominent things we have to trust in is God’s timing in answering our prayers. To which we would say, life often feels like one big game of waiting. Waiting for a significant other to spend our lives with. Waiting for healing. Waiting for a job. Waiting for financial hardship to pass. Waiting for your kids' very very terrible 2’s to end. Waiting to get into the college of your choice. Waiting on a diagnosis. Waiting for your missing son to come home. Waiting for things to just simply change. Perhaps we could put “oh, all in God’s timing” in the Christian cliche hall-of-fame, but there is an undeniable truth to that statement. We get weary in the waiting, but can you trust that the all-knowing God knows when to move? And even if he doesn’t move in a way that you can see, can you trust in that as well? Again, more talk about the character of God. We encounter it at every turn. Some would dismiss this as creating a world in which God can never lose. He comes through, let’s give him credit. He doesn’t, let’s trust in him anyway. Except this world isn’t one that can be chalked up to human invention. The Bible was written over a 1,500 year period. From the time of Adam to Noah to Abraham to Moses to David to Esther to Jesus to the early church alllll the way up to our day, the same thing has been taught about God’s character. It’s never changed. And while there will be inevitable times of disappointment, sometimes we find that waiting on God will produce the most beautiful of results. This may sound like a silly example, but in college I would constantly bemoan the fact that my roommates all had significant others, and I didn't. Jealousy and impatience began to set in. I wanted to date so badly, yet relationship after relationship didn't pan out. Graduation day eventually rolled around, but I wasn't too thrilled. I had no job prospects, no significant other, and my friends were bolting town for better opportunities. The loneliness only intensified after moving back in with my parents. And then one day, I got a surprise job offer 3,000 miles across the country in Seattle. I took it. A year later, right as I was contemplating leaving Seattle to return home to Florida for good, I was at a friend gathering and met a woman who later would become my girlfriend, fiancee, and wife. None of this is to say "hey, look at my success story - yours is right around the corner!" but rather to show that the timing came in a way that was completely unexpected. Just because I couldn't see the variables working beneath the surface, doesn't mean they weren't there. Had I moved to Seattle a year earlier, or forced one of those relationships to work in college, I may have a very different relationship status today. The timing was so specific that there's no way I could've forecasted or predicted the right time or the right person to talk to. This experience is not unique to me, specifically in the context of relationships. Many of us are painfully looking at the clock as it turns past age 30… age 33…. age 36… age 40, wondering when? Is there something wrong with me? Why haven’t I found someone? But perhaps you're wrestling with a different situation. Something health-related. Imagine the pain of the paralyzed man in the scriptural account in Mark 2. His friends were so desperate for his healing that they lowered him through a roof to get to Jesus, who forgives and heals him. And in Matthew 15:30, Jesus heals a myriad of visitors with various ailments and conditions: "Large crowds came to Him, bringing with them those who were lame, crippled, blind, mute, and many others, and they laid them down at His feet; and He healed them. What do we do with that? Depending on where you live in the world, this might hit you differently. Often in the Western world, especially the United States, we have a distorted view of pain. We live in a relatively prosperous time period in which (aside from the recent COVID-19 pandemic), there haven't been many earth-shattering, life-altering tragedies such as a world war. We live with a much different mindset than our grandparents' generation, which lived through WWII, Vietnam, and the Great Depression. Many 18-25 year old men often wondered if they'd even live to have families, children, or a successful career. Moreover, the Cold War brought a lingering sense of fear that the two superpowers of the world could blow each other up at any point through mutually assured destruction. However, many of us who grew up in Gen X, Y, or Z, have an expectation that life will pan out a certain way. We don't live with the overwhelming sense of impending doom that many of our grandparents or older relatives did, and we believe our lives will follow a relatively straightforward path of school, career success, and early retirement. Make no mistake, it's not bad to have blessings and opportunities in life. I wouldn't want to fail to notice the irony of me typing this blog at a coffee shop in which I can afford an expensive latte and mooch off the free wifi available to me. But, I do firmly believe that our environment plays a role in shaping our theology and perception of pain in our life. Outside of the West, other cultures around the world freely accept that suffering is a part of life. We have to see how this matters deeply. If, for instance, you have an expectation that the purpose of life is about God fulfilling every request you make, you are likely to be disappointed. Not an easy thing to hear in the wake of unimaginable tragedy. But while we cannot control the circumstances in which we live in, we can control how we respond. This hinges upon where you are in the stages of grief. There is a season for everything and mourning is critical. We cannot begin to think about acceptance and hope if we are still wrapped up in shock, denial, pain and anger. But when we finally are ready to take the next step, it’s precisely at that moment where we start realizing the primary aim of life. It’s not about what we do, what we get or even how pain-free things are, but rather who we’re becoming. And that is to ultimately look more like Jesus. Can you imagine a world if every one of us took up this challenge? It would be perfect social harmony. If the aim was to take daily steps to become more loving, kind, gentle, humble, patient and forgiving. Ironically, if we respond to suffering in the right way, it can teach you this. There will be lessons that will be learned and beauty unlocked if we are willing to participate. This won’t bring back a loved one or heal the lingering illness, but it is the best way to live in a world that is still broken and God is putting back together. We can find purpose through the slow burn of unanswered prayers or we can pray pain doesn't happen to us ever. Mind you, this is not inherently bad. Praying for healing is beautiful, but if we ignore the realities of suffering in our world then we will always feel like we’re on the run. Always dodging, side-stepping, avoiding. The boldest prayers are often the ones for courage, strength, and a dependence on Jesus to carry us through the trials we're set to face. And yet, there remains one more category of unanswered prayers we have yet to address. A driving factor that is hard to comprehend, yet deeply interwoven in the biblical narrative.

In the Old Testament, we read a strange story in the book of Daniel about how Daniel’s prayer was held up in another realm for three weeks. The prayer was heard and was to be answered, but it was delayed. Suspended in an unseen world that could easily be missed. This might sound crazy to you, but is it really? Humans have a strange relationship with the supernatural and the unseen. Remarkably, during the COVID-19 pandemic healing crystals skyrocketed in sales. In recent years, our culture has also been increasingly seeking out mediums, psychics and everything in-between. Why would that be if we didn’t at some level believe in the power of the unseen? In fact, science is even open to the idea of another realm or commonly called “the fifth dimension”. And does that dimension in some way interact with the world that we live in? Curiously, we see this play out in the 2014 Academy-Award nominated film, Interstellar. This is a mini-spoiler alert, but at one point we see Matthew McConaughey in a different realm, somehow able to tap on his daughter’s bookcase and subtly communicate to present-day Earth. While some of the science behind the film was written off, astrophysicist Neil DeGrasse Tyson reflected on the film by saying it was theoretically possible to interact with the past and that “we don’t know what’s in a black hole, so take it and run with it.”

Once we discard the preconceived stereotypes about religion and spirituality, how is what we read in Daniel much different than theories that have been thrown around in scientific circles?

In fact, there is even psychology around our aversion to heaven, hell, angels, demons and the spiritual realm. Known as the priming effect, it’s this idea that there are unconscious influences that affect our thinking and behavior. We have an automatic wiring to certain stimuli, usually predicated upon some sort of previous experience. In his book Thinking, Fast and Slow, psychologist Daniel Kaheman calls the brain an “associative machine” that attaches associations unconsciously to different words and ideas. So when it comes to terminology that has previously been attached to religion and folklore, our brain now automatically writes them off due to prior wacky experiences. But for the purposes of this conversation, you could just as easily swap the trigger words of yesterday for the more sophisticated modern language of today, like “fifth dimension” and “extraterrestrials”. Could an extraterrestrial really be a demon in disguise? How would we even know the difference? Is the fifth dimension something that is part of God’s realm? Will we know the answers to these questions when we die? Quite clearly, scripture would affirm there are other dimensions to be experienced after death -- commonly referred to as heaven and hell. But it is not limited to that. One of Jesus’s original apostles, Paul expounds on this further when he describes the "spiritual" struggle we are living in, warning the church that their actual fight is not against fellow human beings, but "against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." (Eph 6) It is quite clearly here that we see the last will that is in play, which is the will of spiritual beings and the spiritual realm. Michael Heiser’s book The Unseen Realm is heady, but it unpacks the cover-to-cover narrative in the Bible of the spiritual realm. However, he offers a more simple overview in his book Supernatural. So another reason our prayers may be going unanswered is because spiritual beings are imposing their will on the situation, causing interference. Which means that from the exterior, all we may hear is silence, yet in the unseen a war may be waging that prevents our prayers from getting through. The mere possibility of this realm underscores the importance of persistent prayer. Even when the weariness starts setting in. Even when it feels hopeless, over and over again persistent prayer is taught in the scriptures. Of course, it would be impossible to fully understand a spiritual world we cannot see. There’s only so much we can understand with a human lens. And for those of you that are newer to prayer, this all might sound silly, yet consider that McConaughey could hear his daughter from the other realm. And science has categorized in the realm of at least speculative possibility. So why not trust in the scriptures, the most remarkable book in all of history, with thousands of years of history speaking to the importance of pressing on with tenacity?